into you like a train

so basically what this blog is turning into is just me and my high school whining about boys. i'm okay with that.

i don't really know what my problem is. i'm not a shy girl. i'm a pretty outgoing person, especially when i'm drinking. so i have on idea what my hold up is. normally if i want something, i go for it, without really thinking twice. but in this particular situation i am so shy/awkward/nervous to say anything.

i was even set up pretty good to put it out there last night and still couldn't. and i was most definitely drunk last night. i can fall down the steps of ottobar, but i can't be like eyyo i'm tryna hollar at you. liquid courage is not in my dictionary apparently.

i'm getting more confident than it's not just me feelin it, but i'm still not sure. that might be my hold up. when dudes are into me they're usually so obvious about it that i don't even have to do anything. uncertainty freaks me out and makes me double check my forwardness haha


oh life, always silly.