waking up to the green of your eyes, is something i'll get used to OH!

life rules.

new found glory tonight. stoked because they always play all my favorites. climbing all over people and jumping up and down all night. cannot wait. pop punk takes me back to being 16 and not caring about anything but the moment i'm in. you know, young and wide-eyed. all that good stuff. i miss it. and springtime is always when i'm most nostalgic for that age-range of my life because kids are coming out in the neighborhood, hanging out and being general nuisances...that used to be me. i'd love to do that again. this is a perfect time for new found glory to play.

i like when boys that i think are babes also think that i am a babe. this happened to me last night and i smiled. he has a girlfriend. which is fine bc ew boys have cooties if you do more than look at them.

i got a blackberry. it's pretty cool. i feel more adult...even though i'm only using it to talk shit via text; tweet; and go on myspace while i'm at work since i can't on my work computer, hahahahah.

i'm doing good at work. i'm taking on a lot of responsibilities and not letting people down, so hopefully that means good things in the future.

been drinking more than i should, probably. but i'm getting old so i gotta do something, plus tony's been my sugar daddy all week so it's been free for meeee. drinking leftover beer from united blood tonight.

all in all, i'm loving life.

i can't believe we're actually doing it.

we have our plane tickets.



i never thought that i'd get to do this, i figured last year was the last chance i'd have.
i don't care that i'm going to end up dropping almost $1,000 on hardcore.
one hundred fucking percent worth it.
traveling across the country with some of my best friends, summertime, hardcore, beer, THE BEACH!
i don't think i'm going to have enough vacation time to cover it. and i know i'm going to be pretty broke saving up between now and then, but it's so worth it.


i say i hate my life all the time, but i really fucking love it. everything wins.

egh

saturday is going to be a mess.
i need a designated driver.

surroundings is playing,
so expect amazing things from me by the end of the night.

fml, it never changes.

YESSSSSSS!

it's back!!!! finally. i love football, but nothing compares to this.

lil wayne wants to do it to me.

proof:


(Lil' Wayne)
un
I like a long haired thick red bon
open up her legs then filet mignon that pussy
I’ma get in and on that pussy
if she let me in I’ma own that pussy
go’n throw it back and bust it open like you ‘posed to
girl I got that dope dick
now come here let me dope you
you gon’ be a dope fiend
your friends should call you dopey
tell ‘em keep my name out they mouth if they don’t know me
huh
but you can’t come and tunecha
I’ll fuck the whole group
baby I’m a groupie
my sex game is stupid
my head is the dumbest
I promise
I should be hooked on phonics
haha


but anyway I think you’re bionic
and I don’t think you’re beautiful
I think you’re beyond it
and I just wanna get behind it
and watch you
(back it up and dump it back-
back it up and dump it back)

[CHORUS]
cuz we like her
and we like her too
and we like her
and we like her too
and we like her
and we like her too
and we like herr
and she like us too

I wish I could fuck every girl in the world
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world

[Drake:]
yea
alright
(ohh ohhh)
she be jumpin up and down
tryna fit that ass in
took her half an hour
just to get that belt to fasten
all they want to talk about is partyin’ and fashion
every single night I have a dream that I am smashin’
them all
Young Money man this shit so timeless
and I’m in the mood to get faded so please bring your finest
and what are all your names again we drunk remind us
are any y’all into girls like I am lets be honest

she wants me she wants me
cuz I got it all shawty tell me what you don’t see
I will fuck with all y’all
all y’all are beautiful
I just can’t pick one so you can never say I’m choosy hoes
and Wayne say pussy pussy pussy
and weed and alcohol seem to satisfy us all
damn
and every time I think of staying with her
she bring that friend around that make a nigga reconsider man

(CHORUS)

[Jae Millz:]
I ain’t being disrespectful baby I’m just being Millz
and I don’t know how fake feels so I gotta keep it real
I just wanna fuck every girl in the world
every model every singer every actress every diva
every house of diddy chick every college girl every skeezer
stripper and every desperate housewife that resemble eva
my role model was will
so married boy I’m in the milf
it don’t matter who you is miss
you can get the business
haaaa

[Gudda Gudda:]
these hoes is gods gift like Christmas
I like ‘em caramel skin long hair thick ass
and I swear I’m feelin’ all y’all
I’m scrollin’ down my call log
and I’ma call all y’all
my butter pecan Puerto Rican
she screamin’ out “papi” every time a nigga deep in
and I’m about to get my Bill Clinton on
and Hilary can Rodham too boy I gets my pimpin’ on

(CHORUS)

cuz we like her
and we like her too
and we like her
and we like her too
and we like her
and we like her too
and we like herr
and she like us too

I wish I could fuck every girl in the world (11X)


[Mack Maine:]
and bitch I’m Mack Maine -aine -aine -aine
Sanaa Lathan
Meagan Good
Angelina Jolie
hah
D Woods
for free suites I’d give Paris Hilton all-nighters
in about 3 years, holla at me Miley Cyrus
I don’t discriminate, no not at all
kit kat a midget if that ass soft I break her off
I exchange V cards with the retards
and get behind the Christian like DR cuz he are
Mack Mizzo
baby
cuz he are Mack Mizzo
baby

[OUTER CHORUS:]
AND....
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world
I wish I could fuck every girl in the world (DEEP VOICE FADE)

Young Mula baby

if i had a time machine...

i was thinking this morning that i wish life was like a "choose your own adventure" book. and that after you're done living and shit, you could pick a point in time and go back and try the other option. see how that turned out.

i've been thinking lately how 2005 was the most defining/changing year of my life.
not one thing went as planned and i made major changes that are still affecting me now.

what if instead of leaving the art institute and moving home to be with josh i had stayed.
what would my job be like now? i'd have a degree but would i be happy? would i have lost touch with everyone who means the world to me right now? would rob and i have patched things up and got back together (oh, lolz)?

life would be so different if i had stayed in philly. i probably wouldn't be the wreck of a person that i am sometimes if i had. but would i have met anyone who made me feel like josh did.


i am way too undecided not to get do-overs in life. blah.



party time in fells tonight, woooo weekendz!
opening day with rena on monday!!!

it's like you're falling in love while i just fall apart

lately i really miss dave and josh (jones).
things keep coming up that bring back really strong memories with them.

i can't believe dave's been dead over a year now.
i still can't really fathom what could've made him feel like hanging himself was better than life.

i realized that i had been on the path to just shutting people out completely and giving up on people before they have a chance to prove it before dave died, but after that i kind of really lost it.

i don't know if it's possible for me to trust people or let people in that haven't already been around me long enough for me to realize that they don't plan on going anywhere.

i'm not even really making sense, i'm sure. just jumbling thoughts all around. whatever.


took my polygraph yesterday. pretty sure i passed.
went out and celebrated in fells point.
tony had to drive my car home because i couldn't function.
i'm told that i threw pizza at him while he was driving.
i also ripped my jeans from the top of my thigh down to my shin.
i woke up with them still on me. oh, life.
why can't everyday be like that? hahhh